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I have to say, January has been a perfect birthday month and great way to kick off 2016. I had a dreamy birthday weekend. I woke up the morning of my birthday and cried a little because I felt so loved and happy (I'm odd). I have a new person to spend time with and get to know. (<3). And all in all, it's been a month full of friends and laughing and honestly, that's how I want every month to be.

I reflected on 2015 a little bit in my last personal post, but I think the end of the year into the beginning of 2016 really helped me realize that putting myself out there and moving to a new city was worth it. I think I questioned that decision (never out loud) a lot during 2015. I worried I made the wrong choice lying on the sofa in my un-airconditioned house when it was 98 degrees with 70 percent humidity. I worried I made the wrong choice when I realized I was growing apart from friends I thought I cared about deeply. I worried I made the wrong choice when I lied in bed on Sunday mornings to the 8am hum of power tools as they worked on every unoccupied house on my block. But, we're all growing up and figuring it out. Growing apart and growing closer together. I think in the past year I've learned more about myself than I ever have. I've created an independent life for myself. I've tried to be there for my friends and family when they needed me. I put myself out there. I've let myself be vulnerable and saw where it led. And then did it again when I was hurt. I travelled and created memories I'll cherish. The past year has been a rollercoaster, and though I do look back and remember being overwhelmed and, frankly, sad, I also know that I learned a lot about how to grow and overcome.

So hooray for feeling good. And happy. And dreaming of what this year has to offer. 

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